I don’t always have the space for her
with all this time
I seem to be entering a vacuum
I am a black hole
I try to be fun
I want to be interested
But I am selfish and solitary
I want the bustle and the bodies
the shared experience
yet I just want quiet
and to be left alone
in this quiet house
I want to breathe
to hear my thoughts
inside this structure
all feels still
and I am whirling inside
but its stuck down there
a one-way valve
energy is diminished
play comes last
there is still laughter in me
but in the embrace of sadness
it remains distant
there is an excepted solace
but, yet something is missing
Bodies in the house
makes time pass faster
we are furious in our consumption of moments
never arresting ourselves to digest
its the overlap of ambition and love
duty and routine are dispassionate
and they mock us
we’re racing without energy
huffing and puffing at each other
we can’t catch up with this slow.